Yu Xiuhua is enthusiastic. She never hides this, nor can she hide it. Her relationship with her boyfriend Yang zhuce, from deep love, to taking wedding photos, to self explosion, domestic violence, separation, breakup, and mediation, was staged within half a year. The identities of poet, disabled person and "love brain" woman nested in Yu Xiuhua are not enough to frame her. Some people have long foreseen the unhappy ending of Yu Xiuhua and Yang zhuce, but they didn't expect it to come so soon. At the beginning of 2022, the two openly fell in love. In early May, they took wedding photos. "520" Yu Xiuhua received a large number of roses, and everything seemed to be developing in a bright direction. In early July, Yu Xiuhua blew herself up and suffered domestic violence, "pinched my neck and almost strangled me", "he slapped me hundreds of times". Then Yang zhuce responded, "I didn't hit her without discretion. If I lost control, she couldn't send Weibo." On July 11, the farce finally ended with the "mediation agreement" of the police station and the handwritten apology letter of Yang zhuce. Yu Xiuhua's relationship with Yang zhuce ended in a mess. Before that, Yu Xiuhua had suffered too much emotionally. For love, Yu Xiuhua is always in a state of "not crazy, not alive". Before the divorce, she fell in love with a radio host. After several offline meetings, Yu Xiuhua once drank wine and went downstairs to find him, but 110 came. At the beginning of 2020, Yu Xiuhua confessed to the man who had been secretly in love for 6 years, but was rejected. Yu Xiuhua buried herself in alcohol and tears. The emergence of the post-90s young man Yang zhuce has injected light into Yu Xiuhua's life. He is a beekeeper in Shennongjia. The two spent a poetic and romantic love day there. Yang zhuce carried her up the mountain, held her to enjoy the flowers, and rented a plane to show her the scenery of Shennongjia. During the live broadcast, Yu Xiuhua clung to Yang zhuce's neck and acted coquettish. It was so sweet in the live broadcast, but in reality, it was the man who slapped her in the face. Yang zhuce said that Yu Xiuhua was drunk and disorderly, and he argued for himself, "is it really my fault to force a person who loves her to hit others?" All this seems to be Yu Xiuhua's summary of herself - tyrants in marriage, flower lovers in love monologues, militants in forums, weak and timid peasant women. Yu Xiuhua is a mixture of many contradictions. In 2014, she was well known by netizens because of her bold and fiery poem. Yu Xiuhua is arrogant, but also inferior. On her 46th birthday, she described herself as "a renegade, a person who has to swim across the Yellow River". But she was also concerned about her disabled body and ugly appearance, "I just want to reincarnate and be a good-looking woman without disability". Yu Xiuhua is sober, but also dazzled. She said in the program, "love with all your heart, and love with tears. You can't get it anyway." But when encountering domestic violence, he was still making amends for the man, "he was very kind to me, but he was grumpy." Yu Xiuhua is open-minded, but also penny wise. Yu Xiuhua chose not to pursue responsibility for the domestic violence, nor to make a claim, because she did not want to leave a record for the man, nor did she want to increase the burden on his daughter. However, she never slackened in the scolding battle with netizens. When others regard "love brain" as a low-level thought, and everyone is silent about love in the name of rationality, Yu Xiuhua's image of "crazy for love" is hard to find. She openly publicized the sentences that made people blush and heartbeat, and waved the flag and shouted for love with her incomplete body in her 40s. Although love fails and falls again and again, it does not affect Yu Xiuhua's enthusiasm and desire for the whole world. "In essence, flowers and trees make me love more, and then literature. Men are only icing on the cake." Staggering into the world, having laughed, loved, cried, and hated, Yu Xiuhua proved that she lived not to suffer, not to follow rules, but to truly experience life. (outlook new era)